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So it’s been radio silence for my blog posts because I was discharged from hospital on the 12th December and jumped straight back into my busy shoes lol.

It’s like I have ants in my pants! I just can’t sit still lol… I have no choice but to make a change though… it won’t happen overnight. But I know that it must happen. I need to slow down and find a balance.

Lol anyways…. let’s backtrack to the title of this post…. it popped into my head the second I saw this infront of me at my follow up appointment:

I was diagnosed with diffuse large b-cell mediastinal lymphoma. This walkway was the start of me going down my rabbit hole. 🌻 

 Urban Dictionary Definition: 

An allusion to Lewis Carroll’s Alice in Wonderland. To go “down the rabbit hole” is to enter a period of chaos or confusion. Can also be said when taking a hallucinogenic, as some suspect Carroll’s novel was really about a drug trip.

A difference I feel between me and Alice though, is that she was falling… and I’m walking… I have the peace of God within me and He is giving me the strength I need for this journey 🙏🏻❤️ God has got me!

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So back to today… this morning my doctor let me know that yesterday, when I did my bone marrow sample extraction, I was after another patient who reported today that they tested positive for COVID-19 🤦🏻‍♀️

I don’t feel that I was exposed though… but….

Shoo, people, we really all need to stop and realise that it’s crazy out there in the world. This second wave seems worse than the first! You can be however careful you want to be, it’s the next person’s negligence perhaps that is the problem. The person that is not sanitising or wearing their mask and putting their germs everywhere. It takes just one unintentional moment when your mind is busy for you to be exposed. Please be safe. 🙏🏻

 

Right now…I’m sitting on my comfy lazy boy chair with my drip in my arm… just chilling ❤️

My first chemo treatment. 🌻

I’m also on a drug trip now… can completely relate to Alice’s predicament of the blue pill vs the red pill.

I was a little anxious earlier,  apparent by the lump in my throat, runny tummy and feeling of nausea… but it’s normal and wasn’t overwhelming.

Right now, I have 1 bag of treatment left and I’m super lethargic and my throat feels thick. Let the nurse know, in case it’s an allergic reaction. Got a saline drip to flush and even things a bit and feel better. 😊

First round of chemo almost done ✅🎉

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Appreciate and celebrate the little things, the blessings and you diminish the negativity.

I’m thankful I won’t have hair on my legs, I normally shave and 30 mins later I have stubble lol! I find the silver lining and troubleshoot the solutions instead of sulking about the problem – that won’t get me anywhere in the direction I want to go.

Only forward positive steps ❤️🙏🏻